Swirling into the Light

Yesterday, as usual, I was doing my IAM on the roof of the ‘S’ flats. After I finished, I remained there to watch the sunset while Amma sang bhajans in the hall below. There is this flood light at the edge of the roof. For the past few nights, I have been taking quite an interest in watching the bugs that start swirling around the light as it gets darker.

Since I had my camera with me, I decided to try to take some photos. With Amma’s Grace, and many different settings I was able to capture a few nice shots. Afterwards, as I was viewing the photos, it made me think of all the devotees who flock around Amma. Some fly head on into Her, others swirl around at a distance ‘checking out the scene’, others fly in the opposite direction. I think I’m like one who swirls around at a distance, but then every now and then, flies head on, then bounces back off into the world. It may be strange hearing this from someone who’s been living and travelling with Amma for the past year and half, but it’s really an internal experience. Anyway, I pray to Amma for the day when I really do fly head on to Her and remain there - forever in Her service. I know in my heart that She is doing everything in Her power to make this happen – for me and for everyone else.

Sri Pati, USA
20 September 2006